Blood drains from my jugular as my brain leaks into the drain and the cops are calling the party off

I sit on my PC musing over this topic having had barely an hour of sleep over the last night and barely 6 hours two days ago, so I'm definitely not in the best possible shape I can be, which warrants writing one of these I suppose, just to sate my own emotions. I just came back from SXU2018 in Auckland, which commemorates the end of my second year of playing travelling around NZ for fighting games. During these two years I think I have had amazing growth as a human and as a player, going through many ups and downs and meeting tons of amazing people from all walks of life along the way. I find it not to be an exaggeration when I say that I think fighting games saved my life. It turned my from a bumbling fool with crippling social anxiety so a bumbling fool with still a lot of social anxiety who knows a lot of people and who is known by a fair amount of people. It really hit me when I introduced myself to IsaacFromDC, and he told me he appreciated my commentary for DBFZ top 16

My manic insane funny spirit is done and there is only pain and sadness left as the coffee effects slowly wear off. Typing on phone is awful for me but I'll try my best to avoid typos. Having listened to BFMY for 4 hours probably contributed heavily to this state of being for me. I have always been an awful fiction writer but I always had interest in it when I was younger right until I found fighting games, then I just quit it for some reason that I am not sure of. During this time I came up with lots of concepts and wrote a lot of short stories and attempted lots of long stories episodically, and a fair chunk of those were posted onto a blog that has now been removed entirely from the internet due to it being comprised of depression fueled by teenage hormones. One such concept that took birth way before all this was a fictional universe of "Y-men", so called because their entire concept art designed by this abject failure of a masculine being was based around turning